That Pain On My Left Chest
It's been quite some time I've been feeling this way. Childhood was for granted, life's ambitions were a far fetched dream back then. I'd live one day at a time with only school, cricket, tennis and fun with friends. But once I put myself out there, vulnerable, in this big, ruthless world, I've felt always felt stagnant in what I want in my life. To put it into a better relatable perspective, you could think of Porcupine Tree's masterpiece, ' Arriving Somewhere But Not Here '. That's how I've been feeling and it's been a long while. I sense like I'm arriving at all these different places or times in my life but they're not 'here', so to speak. I feel like all I'm doing is just traveling, seeing places, events, things move by like one does from the windowpane of a moving train. Maybe the 'here' is an ideal and utopian spot I've made in my mind. But I've just always felt that I'm just reaching...